Today I rolled with a blue belt that had a 115lb weight advantage. Havent done that in 2 years, since im all about avoiding injuries.

Man, it REALLY makes you appreciate what Royce Gracie did in UFC 1,2,3,4 taking out opponents that much bigger than him.

Really wore myself out from fighting too hard. With a guy that much larger than you, trying to move them is a big mistake. I need to learn to be more patient. You cant force anything on a monster, it just gets you tired. Its the over competitiveness working against me. *sigh*

Had a wakeup call tonight.
Ive made tremendous progress with my fatigue issues, but tonight I got to see where I really am.

My girlfriend is doing crossfit with me and is 9 years younger than me, but she hasnt exercised in many many years. Completely sedentary.

Ive been doing jits for many years now so people dont consider me out of shape. Little do they know.

With that in mind....today we did a hard crossfit workout, and 2 of the exercises involved squats with the olympic bar/weights. Since we are beginners we only do the bar or a light PVC pipe.

She used a 35lb bar, and I only used the light PVC bar.

She creamed me, and it was nearly a 100% effort or my part. She creamed me USING weight, and I weigh a lot more than her so as a percentage of body weight she REALLY creamed me.

FUCK. I have less endurance than a sedentary girl, no offense to the girls here, but I am a man after all with those supposed physical advantages. Fuck fuck fuck.

Talked to my instructor and he said my fatigue had shattered my body for so many years I cant expect to be 100% healthy yet and to give it a full year of crossfit and see where im at after that.

My thoughts of competing soon just went out the window. Hate the idea of stepping onto a mat with a huge handicap like this. Depressing.

It really speaks to the effectiveness of jiu jitsu though. I roll with blue belts that are cross fit monsters, that would put me to incredible shame in crossfit, and I still sub them on the mats. Amazing what a technical advantage can do.

Someone please kill me.

Started with rowing.... since I know how to row, over did the first round and blew my legs out. Downhill from there. 3 rounds of pure hell. Dont know how people can put themselves through this every week for years

Cant believe we got snow again this year!
But he loooooves it.

After several weeks off.... im testing my ankle injury and rolling again, avoiding giant monsters for now.

Dragon Magico wanted to roll some, so I did, as chill as I could. Before our second roll he made some comment about how I am "74.5%" ninji" (Team Roc slang for Ninja)



Been doing some boxing during the MMA class before BJJ class for my cardio workout since I couldnt roll. Was fun.... except with the 205lb guys. Even when they punch you in the face "light" I get slightly rocked

Feels good to be back.... just gotta make sure my ankle gets to 100% before I injure it again Forcing myself to roll super chill mode is awesome. You really learn a lot and build your confidence doing that.